Saturday, April 27, 2013

I look at the world and the first thought that comes to my mind is..crap there are a ton of people. I mean really you look at earth like on a little map and stuff and really it doesn't seem that big; but then you think about how many people there are and you wonder how are we fitting? The amazing thing about it is God created each and every one of us to be different. Sure there are people who like the same thing but if you were to actually see what's inside their hearts and their minds we are different. We think different things, we act different ways, we love different things then the average bear. (Just watched a yogi bear commercial). I mean his work is glorious.
    The thing that gets me most is how is God watching over each and every one of us? I mean there are TONS of people but he's doing it. He does watch over us all, he's there for us whether we want him to be or not whether we need him or not. God's looking out for us and he wants us to draw near to him. Growing up I think if I didn't have Christ in my life where would I be? When I ask that so many things pop into my head, but then I turn my thoughts over and I think wow I am one heck of a lucky girl to have the Lord in my life. Because through everything I've been through it's God who's been there for me through it all. I lost a ton of friends growing up and a few family members, but not God. Even when I felt like I didn't deserve him in my life, even when I turned against him and I blamed him for everything bad that happens to me. I look to the Lord and I thank him. I thank him for being my best friend and for everything he does. I thank him for this life he has given me, this life that he chose for me. The person he is making me to be.
     God softened my heart and he made me open my eyes and look at the world in a whole different way. I used to think that everybody was cruel, I couldn't trust a soul, the only thing that would ever happen to me is I'd end up being on the streets as some low life bum begging others for their money. I know I know I'm only 16 and that could still happen (just kidding). But I am making my life the way I want it to be and how God wants it to be. If I never found Christ I wouldn't have met all the wonderful amazing people that are in my life now. He has fulfilled me, given me joy, given me peace, and he has given me the love and the heart to open up to everyone else around me in hopes that more people will accept him into their hearts.
   I found the Lord when I was 6 years old. At the time I didn't know much about who he was really. All I know was that he created me and gave his son up for me so I could go to heaven someday. Getting older and just a little wiser I learned more and more about him, and how he helps people. All it really takes is prayer. Prayer to ask him into your heart, prayer for forgiveness. Prayer is our way to talk to the Lord about our problems and about our struggles. We can talk to him about just every day things for example: This is such beautiful weather Lord, or where did my dog run off to this time God? He does answer your prayers, it may not be at the time you want but it's at the time God wants and he feels is right. You just have to patient and know God has a plan for you and he will answer your prayers but you must wait. God answers our prayers in three different ways: he says yes and gives you what you want, he says not yet, and he says I have something better in mind. And I must say the most awesome answer to our prayer would be he has something better in mind. Because, and I know again people say I'm young. But last year I dated a guy, and when he broke up with me at a time I felt was the worst of my life, I prayed and prayed and begged God to bring us back together. I actually prayed that he would let me and this guy be together. But God had something better in mind for me. He brought somebody sooooo much better into my life. God did answer my prayer, God showed me that I can't always get the exact thing I want. But who cares? I mean everything God has given to me is perfect. He's given me a life that I feel like I don't deserve sometimes. He's given me love to share with others. He's given me the strength to stand tall and help others with their struggles and to let them know that he is there.
              God is truly remarkable, and there are no other words to describe how remarkable he is. The things he does in your life when you don't even realize it. The times you look back and you realize that he was with you the whole time, you just never opened your heart to him to let him come through.




      Thank you Lord for all the remarkable things you do and have done in my life. Thank you for the people you brought into my life, who have been there for me through thick and thin. I pray for others that haven't found you yet but hopefully someday will. And that they will know you, and they will forever be your children Lord. We are all your children and I know you love each and every one of us the same way. You gave up your son for us that we shall not perish but have eternal life with you in heaven Lord. I pray for others struggles, and others needs that you will show yourself to them and help them to get the strength and the courage to push through. Thank you Lord. Amen. 
 

Sunday, April 7, 2013

Thursday

Dear Readers/ a very good friend of mine who's been waiting for a blog post :),
    Alright I will tell you all about my past week and other such days that I have missed telling you. Well Last Friday was the first day of spring break! Woohoo spring break! I have to admit that spring break is my favorite break. I mean sure for winter break you get like an extra week outa school, but spring break the weather is nice it's relaxing and it rocks. So my first day off of school my dad got to get off work as well. It was great we spent the entire day shopping and exploring the new target together. I had such a great day with him. It's also the same day Brett left for vacation. I really miss him right now but this weekend he comes back so that rocks! Also soon I have a very nice surprise for him :). I said that just to tease him ha,ha. On Saturday my dad was off again. In the morning we went and did laundry together and since it was a nice day out I said we should go get some icecream. Or maybe that was Friday I'm not sure. But anyway Friday and Saturday were shopping/spending time with my dad days. On Sunday it was Easter of course!! Yay! Jesus rocks!! :) The day he was ressurected and we were forgiven for our sins and have a way into heaven. Without Jesus we wouldn't go to heaven when we die, so I'm extremely thankful for him<3. It was a good day at church, I loved the inspirational message our new pastor gave. He really is an awesome speaker! After church we got back home and had a nice easter meal with my brother. Then the girls got to open gifts and search for eggs. It was super sweet hearing my youngest sister claire talk about Jesus and how he died for us. I am so proud of how my sisters are growing up, and learning more about God. It just warms my heart :). Alright so that was Sunday, and at the end of Sunday I was sad Journey and Claire had to leave but I get to see them again to so I am happy thinking about that. Monday was kind of boring. All I did pretty much was watch movies and relax all day. Because I slept in until 2 in the afternoon though the day went by pretty fast. Tuesday I hung out with a couple people and I had my own little dance party. It was nothing much, just disco dancing/dancing really hyperly haha. It was a lot of fun!! On Wed. life got more boring I couldn't wait for the day to end because I wanted to hang out with my grandpa. So that was Wed. not much to tell ha,ha. Alright on with today. Today is Thursday and I am still at my grandpa's house but him and my brother are talking right now and I decided to check my gmail and write a blog real quick. Well last night was the worst sleep I have ever gotten. I got 2 hours of sleep, it sucked because every little noise there was kept me awake. Mainly my dad's snoring though, it seemed like it was louded then usual last night and I couldn't fall asleep. I ended up finally getting to sleep but I woke up at like 6 because I started hearing my dad getting ready for work. It's just not my night I guess ha,ha. The morning went by pretty quickly and before I knew it my grandpa came over. It was a ton of fun, we went to the new riverfront museum we have in downtown. After the museum we went to Mr. Gs to eat which is an awesome restaurant :). Later on we went and got some icecream. It was delicious!! Once we got back home my brother came over. It felt like old times again because we went to the courts and played some basketball. Afterwards he took me home and that was my week you missed :) goodnight!!