Saturday, April 27, 2013

I look at the world and the first thought that comes to my mind is..crap there are a ton of people. I mean really you look at earth like on a little map and stuff and really it doesn't seem that big; but then you think about how many people there are and you wonder how are we fitting? The amazing thing about it is God created each and every one of us to be different. Sure there are people who like the same thing but if you were to actually see what's inside their hearts and their minds we are different. We think different things, we act different ways, we love different things then the average bear. (Just watched a yogi bear commercial). I mean his work is glorious.
    The thing that gets me most is how is God watching over each and every one of us? I mean there are TONS of people but he's doing it. He does watch over us all, he's there for us whether we want him to be or not whether we need him or not. God's looking out for us and he wants us to draw near to him. Growing up I think if I didn't have Christ in my life where would I be? When I ask that so many things pop into my head, but then I turn my thoughts over and I think wow I am one heck of a lucky girl to have the Lord in my life. Because through everything I've been through it's God who's been there for me through it all. I lost a ton of friends growing up and a few family members, but not God. Even when I felt like I didn't deserve him in my life, even when I turned against him and I blamed him for everything bad that happens to me. I look to the Lord and I thank him. I thank him for being my best friend and for everything he does. I thank him for this life he has given me, this life that he chose for me. The person he is making me to be.
     God softened my heart and he made me open my eyes and look at the world in a whole different way. I used to think that everybody was cruel, I couldn't trust a soul, the only thing that would ever happen to me is I'd end up being on the streets as some low life bum begging others for their money. I know I know I'm only 16 and that could still happen (just kidding). But I am making my life the way I want it to be and how God wants it to be. If I never found Christ I wouldn't have met all the wonderful amazing people that are in my life now. He has fulfilled me, given me joy, given me peace, and he has given me the love and the heart to open up to everyone else around me in hopes that more people will accept him into their hearts.
   I found the Lord when I was 6 years old. At the time I didn't know much about who he was really. All I know was that he created me and gave his son up for me so I could go to heaven someday. Getting older and just a little wiser I learned more and more about him, and how he helps people. All it really takes is prayer. Prayer to ask him into your heart, prayer for forgiveness. Prayer is our way to talk to the Lord about our problems and about our struggles. We can talk to him about just every day things for example: This is such beautiful weather Lord, or where did my dog run off to this time God? He does answer your prayers, it may not be at the time you want but it's at the time God wants and he feels is right. You just have to patient and know God has a plan for you and he will answer your prayers but you must wait. God answers our prayers in three different ways: he says yes and gives you what you want, he says not yet, and he says I have something better in mind. And I must say the most awesome answer to our prayer would be he has something better in mind. Because, and I know again people say I'm young. But last year I dated a guy, and when he broke up with me at a time I felt was the worst of my life, I prayed and prayed and begged God to bring us back together. I actually prayed that he would let me and this guy be together. But God had something better in mind for me. He brought somebody sooooo much better into my life. God did answer my prayer, God showed me that I can't always get the exact thing I want. But who cares? I mean everything God has given to me is perfect. He's given me a life that I feel like I don't deserve sometimes. He's given me love to share with others. He's given me the strength to stand tall and help others with their struggles and to let them know that he is there.
              God is truly remarkable, and there are no other words to describe how remarkable he is. The things he does in your life when you don't even realize it. The times you look back and you realize that he was with you the whole time, you just never opened your heart to him to let him come through.




      Thank you Lord for all the remarkable things you do and have done in my life. Thank you for the people you brought into my life, who have been there for me through thick and thin. I pray for others that haven't found you yet but hopefully someday will. And that they will know you, and they will forever be your children Lord. We are all your children and I know you love each and every one of us the same way. You gave up your son for us that we shall not perish but have eternal life with you in heaven Lord. I pray for others struggles, and others needs that you will show yourself to them and help them to get the strength and the courage to push through. Thank you Lord. Amen. 
 

Sunday, April 7, 2013

Thursday

Dear Readers/ a very good friend of mine who's been waiting for a blog post :),
    Alright I will tell you all about my past week and other such days that I have missed telling you. Well Last Friday was the first day of spring break! Woohoo spring break! I have to admit that spring break is my favorite break. I mean sure for winter break you get like an extra week outa school, but spring break the weather is nice it's relaxing and it rocks. So my first day off of school my dad got to get off work as well. It was great we spent the entire day shopping and exploring the new target together. I had such a great day with him. It's also the same day Brett left for vacation. I really miss him right now but this weekend he comes back so that rocks! Also soon I have a very nice surprise for him :). I said that just to tease him ha,ha. On Saturday my dad was off again. In the morning we went and did laundry together and since it was a nice day out I said we should go get some icecream. Or maybe that was Friday I'm not sure. But anyway Friday and Saturday were shopping/spending time with my dad days. On Sunday it was Easter of course!! Yay! Jesus rocks!! :) The day he was ressurected and we were forgiven for our sins and have a way into heaven. Without Jesus we wouldn't go to heaven when we die, so I'm extremely thankful for him<3. It was a good day at church, I loved the inspirational message our new pastor gave. He really is an awesome speaker! After church we got back home and had a nice easter meal with my brother. Then the girls got to open gifts and search for eggs. It was super sweet hearing my youngest sister claire talk about Jesus and how he died for us. I am so proud of how my sisters are growing up, and learning more about God. It just warms my heart :). Alright so that was Sunday, and at the end of Sunday I was sad Journey and Claire had to leave but I get to see them again to so I am happy thinking about that. Monday was kind of boring. All I did pretty much was watch movies and relax all day. Because I slept in until 2 in the afternoon though the day went by pretty fast. Tuesday I hung out with a couple people and I had my own little dance party. It was nothing much, just disco dancing/dancing really hyperly haha. It was a lot of fun!! On Wed. life got more boring I couldn't wait for the day to end because I wanted to hang out with my grandpa. So that was Wed. not much to tell ha,ha. Alright on with today. Today is Thursday and I am still at my grandpa's house but him and my brother are talking right now and I decided to check my gmail and write a blog real quick. Well last night was the worst sleep I have ever gotten. I got 2 hours of sleep, it sucked because every little noise there was kept me awake. Mainly my dad's snoring though, it seemed like it was louded then usual last night and I couldn't fall asleep. I ended up finally getting to sleep but I woke up at like 6 because I started hearing my dad getting ready for work. It's just not my night I guess ha,ha. The morning went by pretty quickly and before I knew it my grandpa came over. It was a ton of fun, we went to the new riverfront museum we have in downtown. After the museum we went to Mr. Gs to eat which is an awesome restaurant :). Later on we went and got some icecream. It was delicious!! Once we got back home my brother came over. It felt like old times again because we went to the courts and played some basketball. Afterwards he took me home and that was my week you missed :) goodnight!!

Sunday, March 24, 2013

March 24 2013

Dear readers,
       I don't really know where I last left off so I guess I will tell you all I can remember about the past week or so. Right now Brett and I have this deal going on where if I write a blog he will tell me more of a story :). Last Monday I woke up nice and early for school so I got to go online and talk to Brett for a little bit. It's always a great way to start my day getting to talk to him and say good morning. In first hour I started drawing a stick figure picture all of the memories Brett and I have had. I got a pass to go to the office and a lady there gave me a letter with a tshirt saying that somebody noticed how hard I have been working and decided to reward me by buying a shirt. It was really nice of whoever it was, but I felt kind of bad about it because I wanted to say thank you. So as a thank you instead the next day I wore it. At the end of school I came home and got online to talk to Brett again, and it was awesome because he told me he could come over and hang out for a bit. So he came and we watched a movie together and talked and stuff till he had to leave. Tuesday I was super tired the entire day and not much really happened. Wednesday I had a pretty good day at school and I've been getting a ton of extra help from teachers and stuff on homework. After school since I haven't gone to youth group in a long time I wanted to, but my dad had to work late so I went through all the contacts in my phone and finally got ahold of somebody who could come and get me. I was so thankful that I got to go, because it was a lot of fun and I missed everyone. Thursday I have no idea what happened, except that I went to school and learned. Friday was a little more interesting. We watched movies and stuff for like 3 class periods then we had an assembly. I usually sit by my friend Celeste which I decided will be the last time I will ever do so... stuff she talked about made me feel super awkward and I was mad when I got my pants pulled down. Yes, standing up she grabbed my belt and my pants dropped... talk about embarrassing moments. The rest of my classes we watched movies and stuff to so it was pretty much an easy day for me. Which that never happens at Limestone, usually they work us till we pass out haha. Anyway after school I went prom dress shopping with my dad. Let me just say that if your gonna go shopping for a dress make sure you go with another woman... the entire time he wouldn't look at the dress he focused on the price... he even kept telling me how prom isn't even important at all and i shouldn't even go. I was so mad by the end of the night I decided to adopt a mom lol. Saturday (yesterday) was the most wonderful day in the entire year so far. Brett came over at around 9 a.m and we hung out for awhile. It was so much fun just talking to him, then we started messing with my stuffed animals and a guitar with 4 strings left on it. Which Brett would say I broke it... but don't listen to him x) ha,ha. My dad asked if we were ever gonna leave because our original plans were to go to the riverfront museum and stuff but sense it was so nice out we just went to little ceasars and bought a pizza then went down to the riverfront to walk. It was so much fun, and super relaxing. I always used to walk down to the riverfront and just enjoy the sky and the breeze and think about things and having him there to walk with me and talk I had fun :). After the walk we went back to my place and took pictures together and talked about memories we've had so far and when we first met each other. It was so sweet, after a bit he had to leave though and so we hugged and stuff. It was super hard to let him go after such a really fun day but I knew I was going to see him in the morning so I wasn't too sad. I think after our day of hanging out yesterday we became a lot closer to each other which is awesome, I couldn't ask for a  better guy in my life :). I talked to him on facebook till about 12 last night. I couldn't stop thinking about it, so it took forever to get to bed haha. And One thing I really love about him is I have this giant fear of ladybugs (please don't ask why) but he's the only one who didn't laugh at me or make fun of me for it :) instead he'd been trying to help me get over it. Anyway this morning I woke up a little late so we ended up missing youth group, but at the church I talked to my friend Paige and then I saw Brett again. It was a ton of fun :). I kept passing notes with paige and brett and journey the whole time, don't worry thought I stilled payed attention to what the pastor was talking about. I am able to multitask haha. After church I had to go unfortunetly and so Brett and I hugged goodbye and here I am on the computer talking to him again, listening to some scottish music, and writing a blog :). have a good week everyone!

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

I'm sorry

Dear Readers,
    It has been almost a month since I last wrote a blog and told you all about what was going on with my life. I have no excuse for it, but to say that lately I have just been  caught up in life and doing my own thing that I didn't feel it was necessary to write a blog telling you all about my life, but instead I should write things to make you happy or smile. Anyway because of a little birdy (Brett) always wanting me and bugging me to write a blog I am now going to tell you about my life in the past month. Or at least the parts that I remember. I can't really tell you a day to day basis though, because I suck with timing and I wouldn't ever be able to tell you everything on one blog. But, I will try my best to tell you how life has been. So a few weeks ago/ a month I ended it with Brett. I told him that I just wanted to be friends so I could think about things for a little while and focus on life and school. But also, another reason I wanted to be friends for a little bit was because I had so many guys that were trying to get with me I thought it was unfair to him. The tale is true YOU CAN'T BE FRIENDS WITH A GUY!!!! Maybe you can when your older, but high school years it's impossible! They start to feel like they love you, and your the one for them and stuff it's terrible!! I have so many friends and most of them are guys because I haven't really found a good girl friend cept Daphnee. Anyway they all ended up telling me they liked me and I was the one for them. I tried and tried to tell nicely that I wasn't into them like that but they wouldn't give up. Eventually I had to lose them as friends because it was driving me crazy. I had a breaking part and told them all just to leave me alone. It worked that time, I guess you do have to be mean sometimes just to get a point across. Anyway, I became closer friends with my friend Tyler (who I am now trying to hook him up with a girl), and closer friends with other people. I learned my lesson though, which is awesome that now I don't have many guy friends I mostly hang out with girls :). It's way better to be friends with the same sex as you because your parents won't complain if they come over all the time or whenever. Plus you can talk about things like boys and the latest school gossip :). ha,ha. Anyway I got some sad news that Daphnee is going to be moving soon.... I was super torn up about it but lately we haven't been hanging out and I've been getting used to the thought of her being gone. Plus my life won't be over, we still have facebook and skype to talk to each other by.
         So the first weekend of this month I did a ton of thinking, and I mean a TON. I thought about life in general, guys, family, past stuff, my future. I thought a lot. What helped my thinking was Brett coming over the Saturday and Sunday to hang out with me. It was a lot of fun. By the end of the weekend I decided a couple things 1. The past is past I can't change it time to move on. 2. To stop complaining about my father and the things he does wrong and to accept them and just to be there for him 3. I couldn't ask for anything better then what I have already, and 4. that the one guy who's right for me and I know will always be there is Brett. I thought a lot about it and what it would be like to go out with him. I thought of last summer how I met him at camp and then the square dance how much fun it was. He is so silly like I am, his sense of humor is just like mine, and he's creative, and altogether just a ton of fun to be around. Not to mention he is GREAT with children. Journey and Claire love him :) and my dad says he's a pretty good guy. So now here I am going out with Brett again!! :). Before my feelings were all over the place like one moment I would really like him and stuff then I'd say he isn't the one for me, but the past month I know in my heart he's perfect for me. On Tuesday he came over to hang out for a bit. It was a ton of fun, we ended up going hiking and finding pieces to a car. We now have decided that this summer or whenever it gets warmer out were gonna go around finding more pieces and make our own little car. Thinking about making a mustang go kart or something. It'll take a bit of work though ha,ha. Also on our hike it started to snow. It wasn't too cold though and it was still a lot of fun. By the end of the hike my jeans were covered in water, because of the puddle I stepped in. Also, lately I've gotten to be really good friends with Melody. I talked to her about our differences and it's sorta funny that we both thought we hated the other one. But now we are talking and stuff again. And soon I'm gonna start to get flute lessons so I can join marching band next year!! It's going to be a lot of fun!! That's about all I have for now. But I will be back on here again :). Have a good day everyone!!

A crab story :)

There once was a . He was a very nice crab although his claws don't look so nice. He was walking alone one day day. Eventually he came across this nice looking . He thought to himself. hmmm I wonder who lives here. All of a sudden he started hearing somebody singing. There were other voices so he decided whoever it was was listening to the . Whoever it was she had a very nice voice. crab then decided to go back to his home grab his then sneak around her house to see if he could film her singing . If he could he would make a music video and put it on . Anyway crab went around to the back of the house and he saw the girl. she was so pretty that he turned lovestruck then and there . The girl saw him filming her and she started to cry . "Why are you filming me?! How long have you been there?" the poor little crab started to blush he didn't know she would notice him. He tried backing away but ended up stepping on a beehive . He started to cry himself because it stung so badly. The girl then walked over to him and asked if he was alright. He couldn't stop crying but said he would love to take her out for some . When he was able to get up and walk again they went out. They share a slice together. He told her she had such a beautiful voice he was only trying to make a video for her. She was so happy . By the time they got done eating it was nighttime. They decided to take a walk underneath the light. The crab saw a and gave it to her as a . The girl then gave the crab the biggest smooch of his life . They had the best day of their entire lives, and at the end of it they fell asleep together in the park while watching fireworks . The end :)

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

a poem i wrote :)

Death can be scary to some
Others hope that death will come
Some think that hell awaits
But others know they’ll make it to heaven’s gates.
Heaven’s gates are open wide
But are you brave enough to step inside?
Do you love God or love to sin?
Do you follow satan?
Eve took from the wrong tree
She followed what he said
Bringing knowledge for the world to see
Satan put evil in her head
Adam listened to eve
He also took from that tree
God was mad and cast them out
I’m sure they took off and pout
Years later Jesus came
He died a death so we’d be clean
Clean from what some may ask
Clean from sin and the devil’s wrath
All you have to do is believe
That Jesus Christ died for you and me
He died a death he didn’t deserve
He loves us all
And loves the world
So look to the sky tonight and
Praise the lord with all your might

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

February 19 2013

Dear Readers,
            Sorry I haven't posted a blog in over a week. I kept wanting to but technology doesn't like me too well and my computer kept freezing up on me. So here I am at school with 25 minutes left of class and nothing else to do writing a blog for you all. I had so much I wanted to tell that happened last week because it was such an interesting week but of course I can't remember a darn thing. I am sorry that your not going to get to hear all the interesting stories I had to tell. Oh except last week was food fair. On Tuesday we had an assembly  for Easter Seals like we do every year for the children. This year was very heartwarming because of how far the kids have come since the previous year. Also this little girl she said the words to a Journey song Don't Stop Beliening. Which of course at the end of the assembly the jazz choir sang don't stop believing. It was a ton of fun because my friend Celeste and I stood on the bleacher seats and were waving our hands in the air singing along to it.
                     For the Easter Seals for a week we do all sorts of different activities and stuff to raise money to donate. Of course it is also battle of the sexes week so the girls and guys go against each other to see who can win the most money. If the girls win we get to pie the guys in the face if the guys win they get to put a pie in our face :). It's quite a lot of fun. So on Friday we had a food fair. A lot of people ask what in the world is a food fair. Well it's kind of like a mini carnival except it's pretty much all different stands of food. It's my favorite day in the entire school year I have to admit. This year wasn't as good as last years. The juniors and seniors always get to eat first and then we swtich off with the freshmen and sophmores to go watch another assembly. I didn't like this years because the guy just talked about the teachers who work at Limestone and it was really hard to pay attention. The entire time I just kept daydreaming about other things, I know it's sort of rude not to listen but I go to Limestone and I don't really wanna hear about teachers. Also theres these two guys who were sitting by my friend Nikki and I and they kept argueing and fighting with each other. At one point I thought they were going to break into a fight, which luckily they didn't. Although, it would have made the assembly a lot more interesting. I was in such a fantastic mood for the rest of that day. After school I decided to walk to Daphnee's with her to hang out. I haven't been to her house since me and Sam broke up but I finally did it. I wanted to hang out with her for a little bit and then go to a movie and hang with Brett but that turned out not to work out like I hoped. Daphnee wanted to go to the mall and we ended up not having a ride or the money to, and so we just stayed at her place. Even though I still had a lot of fun. I drank a thing of monster and a tooonnnn of coffee so I was super hyper. We ended up looking at prom dresses and I found the one I really want to get.
                         On Saturday I woke up to my dad being all hyper and happy because he ended up getting his tax return. So we decided to go out that morning and go shopping and for once having the money to get what we wanted. I can't believe blockbuster is going out of business. So right before my dad and I went home we stopped at blockbuster because they were having a sale and selling all of their dvds. I found 3 I really wanted. After blockbuster we went home to eat lunch and I texted Brett asking if he wanted to go see the movie Hanzel and Gretal which hunters. I decided never to go to a movie with my dad and a guy ever again. He kept pesturing me to hold his hand and snuggle up close to him if I got scared. He even told me to go buy some popcorn so me and Brett could share... I was blushing extremely bad. The movie was awesome though, except I didn't realize it was rated R and there would be a nude scene and a ton of language. Besides that though it was the best movie ever. Aftrwards we went back to my place and just hung out and talked and stuff. But I knew I had to get started on my research paper and so Brett had to go.
                 The next day of course i woke up to the sound of my sisters running around the apartment. I ended up waking up late though so I missed Sunday school. But at least I made it to the main service. It was funny because I kept coughing up a storm and the pastor mentioned people who keep coughing and Tim and Jonathan ended up looking right at me. After church my sisters and I ate at Arbys. It was very delicious except I kept getting ancy because I needed to get home and work on my paper. As soon as I got home I called up my aunt and told her that I needed to come over and work on her computer. Of course she was alright with that ande so for the rest of the afternoon I ended up just working on my term paper. I was a little late to choir practice because I kept working on it but I hope Rhonda understood. It was awesome seeing my friends again, it's kind of sad the only time I get to see them really is at church and not everybody goes every weekend. Melody was very gitty that night, it was funny the entire time she kept pesturing me about if I'm going to vice versa. Choir practice ended and I was super nervous because my aunt and I were going to have a sit down talk with my dad about stuff. It  went well though and we ended up getting to take home a lot of pizza.
               Monday morning I woke up and I was very nervous for some reason. i think the main reason was I hoped I did good on my rough draft. The day was okay not a lot of people were at school though because everyone else got to have the day off except for us and a couple other schools. So people being lazy and mad about that skipped. After school I went to this test anxiety class, which only 3 people showed up for. It was aweosme though because after for the first time I got to be the only person on the bus. The rest of the night I texted Brett and just watched movies and relaxed. And here we are with today. Which I can't talk much longer because the bell is about to ring so ahve a good day everyone!!

Monday, February 11, 2013

February 11th 2013

Do you ever have one of those days where it seems nothing is going right where everything bad is happening to you all at once? That's pretty much how my day went.

            I woke up this morning feeling wide awake and ready to start my day. Waking up so good I thought it was going to be a good day. Boy, did I think wrong. I went to the restroom to get ready and my hair was a disaster. It took me 10 extra minutes to brush it. Sometimes I hate being a girl. Anyway after I got dressed I went to the kitchen and made some tea. I got this cute coffee cup the other day from panera and I thought I would use it again but I learned that you can't use them twice. I was all ready to head out the door when tea started dripping and it got all over my floor. So, of course I had to put it in a different cup and I just stuck it in the fridge for later. Finally, I got out the door put my key in the lock and the lock got jammed. I ended up wasting more time just to get the darn key out the lock. Aft a couple minutes of bothring with it I started walking to the bus stop. I ended up seeing my bus drive right passed and I took off sprinting. So for anyone who's seen the first spiderman movie where Peter Parker was chasing the bus, that's how I looked. Except my bus driver is nice and stopped for me. Walking to my seat people were laughing at me but I ve to admit it was pretty funny. On the bus I usually talk to my friend but it's hard to even get a word in when someone keeps interrupting you. When the bus got to the school and I was walking off I lost my footing and fell on my face. I just got back, brushed myself off and walked to my locker. It shows how bad my memory is when it's only been 3 days and I couldn't remember my locker combo. At the beggining of the year they apparently gave me the wrong lock and so the office didn't have my locker combination either. Which that pretty much meant I am screwed until I can remember it again. The bell ended up ringing and so my friend Tyler had to put my stuff in his locker. This is why it's great to have friends!! In class I started getting super tired, it was so hard to stay awake but somehow I managed. After class my teacher told me he was really worried about me. To be honest for some reason it felt good because it shows me that my teachers notice me and they care or maybe that's just their job but still I felt good inside. Second hour we learned about goal setting and feeling good about ourselves. In History we learned about the civil war and other wars that led up to it and stuff. rocket academy we had to take another practice act thing and I forgot what I was doing all class period but I know it wasn't the act lol. Oh yeah now I remember I was playing music and dancing to gangnam style :). Thank you very much Brett haha. In 5th hour well we just did more work in class. sixth hour I talked to my friend Chris about other people and how worried I was about english class and not having my 6 pages of my reasearch paper done because this computer sucks and wouldn't let me type it up. At lunch I actually hung out with Melody the entire time and I talked about Brett a lot to her and how worried we both were about english class. After lunch I was walking with Melody to her class because we were still talking and this girl I really wanted to snap at I finally snapped on her today:). She kept interrupting me while I was trying to talk to Melody and when Melody went in her class I turned around and said leave me alone I don't wanna talk to you all you do is annoy the crap outa me! I know it was kinda mean but if you knew the stuff she's done to me and said anyone would snap. Anyway she snapped back saying all I wanted to do was show you a necklace this guy gave me... well that guy was the one I went to homecoming with last fall and it was just a huge terrible night and she won't leave me alone about him so I snapped again saying how I don't care about her or the guy and I walked to my class. My dad told me that's the douglas side in me working. After 6th I saw my friend Celeste and she was all excited and happy because this guy said he would go to vice versa with her and how I need to go :/. To be honest though I don't think I want to, I told Melody I much rather do something at home then go to another dance. Anyway in English the teacher gave us a nice little lecture about people who don't turn in their work and how it effects us not our parents or teachers and stuff. Also I got laughed at by this guy because he told me whenever he sees me talking to someone it's funny how sarcastic I sound when I'm trying to make it seem like I care about something the person is saying but really don't lol. In geometry I about died i needed to sleep so badly, it was so hard not to just pass out right on my desk but again I stayed awake....somehow. When the bell rang and school was over I got happy and excited. On the bus I listened to my music and when I finally got home I was all ready to take a nice little nap. I got out a kiwi and a pearing knife and I ended up sticking the pearing knife in the fridge, not only that but I stuck a cereal box in the fridge after I got some cereal. That shows just how much I pay attention ha,ha. Afterwards I was about to fall asleep when Aletha came over with some stew and papers I have to fill out to get my passport. After she left I just sat around watching tv and talking to Brett(:. Now I am going to go watch the brother's grimm (very good movie btw) and probably head to bed. Goodnight!!

Monday, February 4, 2013

February 4th 2014

Dear Readers,
            Sunday was a pretty good day it went by way too fast thought I have to admit. I woke up and in the morning I had a sore throat and I felt like crap but I gained enough energy for me to go to church. There I saw Brett and Journey was super excited to see him lol. The entire time I was watching them have a poke war I guess I have no idea ha,ha. After church we got to go to my grandparents house for lunch and so my dad could do his taxes. Again my grandpa makes a very delicious meal. That man can cook!! :) After eating my sisters went outside and made a super cute snowman if I had a picture of I'd post on here, and I took a nap because I wasn't feeling too good. Later on in the day was the superbowl which I'm sure mostly all of you who read this watched. The halftime show in my own opinion wasn't as good as I hoped. She mostly danced then sang it was all her recording pretty much but when Destiny's Child came out and performed it was awesome!! I was hoping the ravens would win (which they did) but after the power went out it seemed the 49ers got their game back and were all pumped up. I thought they were gonna win, it ended up turning to a really close game and the Ravens won. yay!! By the 4th quarter I was super tired though so I wanted to go to bed but dad stayed awake and him being awake I stay awake. Anyway I finally got to bed and this this morning I woke up not feeling good again so my dad called up my aunt and told her to take me to the Dr. So later in the afternoon she ended up coming to get me and I found out that I have a sinus affection which is why I've been still having flu symptoms. After the Dr. we went to the dollar tree and I got valentine's day stuff for people I care about :) to make them happy and feel loved and now I'm back at home listening to funky town and talkin to my daddy <3. Well hope you all have a nice night and it's back to school for me tomorrow!! Joy!

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

January 30 2013

Dear readers,
        Hey there haven't done one of these in awhile whenever I try or start to something pops up or I'm busy so I end up just turning this thing off and not messing with it. Anyway I guess I'll start by telling you about Friday. Well Friday was sort of an interesting day. I ended up getting sociable again and walking with my friends to their classes to talk, of course I kept passing Sam in the hallways. By about lunchtime I was walking out of my class when he looked at me and gave me the most deadly glare I have ever seen. Later in the day I sent him a message asking what was up he seemed really angry.... of course it ended up being he thinks I am stalking him and trying to follow him everywhere he goes... Which is complete bullcrap. Not only that but he started calling me bipolar and saying I have a personality disorder. We got into it like majorly,I finally told him off and said what I think of him and stuff it felt great. Of course afterwards I felt kinda sad and emotional. I tried talking to other people like this guy Cameron.. well it just seemed like everybody had something mean to say about me. But I can't always try to be the person everybody likes and I can't always be perfect and it really just opened my eyes.. anyway I contacted my friend Brodie and I asked if he was free on Saturday night if I could hang out and stuff. So I got happy again and fell asleep. Saturday was a very relaxing day. I hung out with my dad for a bit then my friend Micky ended up coming over for a little while to hang out with me. It was fun we played games on my computer and I laughed at him being shocked at how organized my room was. After he left it was time to go to Henry. Well when we got there Brodie drove me around Henry for a little while then we went cruising in the country. Finally we got to his mom's house and we played air hockey, pool, and he's a firefighter so I put on the gas mask and he let me train like a real firefighter. It was a ton of fun finally when it was about 9 he took me to my friend Sophie's house and there I stayed the night. I didn't get any sleep though, I ended up making myself cozy on her couch with the heating blanket and watching tv the entire night. The next day was the most relaxing day I have ever had in my life, I didn't think about anything really and I just relaxed for once. Anyway I got my social self back it's really awesome. Like all this week I have had something to do and in school I'm always talking to people and enjoying every moment. On Monday after school this lady from my church came and got me and we went out for coffee and talked about things for awhile. Then Tuesday after school Daphnee came over and we played Monoply and had a good time and she said it was a lot of fun. Today I got sick at school so I went home and I did 6 hours of this history project thing we have to do, but hopefully our presentation is the one that wins tomorrow so we don't ahve to take the test. And today my dad actually went to a meeting at the church and met people and I am happy for him, also Aletha got me the books I needed for my research project. Tomorrow my friend Mickey is coming over again to hang out with me, and then Friday my friend Tyler invited me to his little sisters birthday party at the riverplex and were gonna go swimming and eat yummy cake :). So it's gonna be a ton of fun also I forgot but something is going on on Saturday and Sunday the sisters are coming voer and again next week I have more plans with friends.... So I'm just really excited and it feels great going to school and talking to people, i hate all the homework we have been getting though but I love seeing my friends and it's nice to have something to look forward to after school :). Alright well that's enough for tonight everyone so I hope you enjoyed and goodnight God bless!!

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

January 22 2012

So today was fantastic!! I got a lot of great news and some bad... I'm going to start with the great news because that is just about my entire day. Anyway to start off the morning I needed a ride to school from my dad so I could print something off but of course his car tires went flat and I had to ride the bus instead. Which that's fine I got to talk to my friend Daphnee this morning on the bus and we had an entertaining talk as ;usual. She gave me another lesson thing to read (she's like my teacher I guess you can call her). Anyway when I got to the school all of my friends were there waiting for me it was awesome, we had a good time talking about nerdy stuff and youtube videos. As usual mornings seem to go by fast and it was first hour. It was an okay class today I guess, what made it good was talking to my friend Celeste and reading what Daphnee wrote for me. After class walking in the hallway my friend Kyla and I were messing around making faces at each other ^.^ it was funny. Anyway second hour today was awesome because in class we talked about self esteem and stuff and I now realized how low of a self esteem I have so I must boost it up a little. Not my fault I have a low self esteem but i'm working on it. Anyway after human relations I have history, and this is where things started to get even better for me. Our teacher Mr. Bell passed out our test and guess who has 2 apposable thumbs and got an A?! THIS GIRL!!!!! First A ever on a test in that class it was so exciting. Then I got an admit from the dean asking me to go to her office. I wasn't too worried about being in trouble considering there are two deans and they have our names in alphabetical order and my dean is Mr. Robinson and it was Mrs. Looke that wanted to talk. Anyway when I got to her room she told me a teacher recommended me for the elite program which is super awesome. At first I had no idea what the elite program was but apparently it helps you to get a job and stuff in the future and I thought awesome I'll for sure sign up! So we only had about 2 minutes before the bell rang I ended up just walking to my locker and getting my books for fifth hour. When the bell did ring I went to my rocket academy and it was a lot of fun because 3 of my friends and I were playing tik tak toe on the board and hangman lol. Then we had to go to this assembly thing about our schedules for next year. Heres where more awesome news hit. Theres this thing our school does certain classes are called dual credit. And what dual credit is college classes you pay for and can take in high school and when you do go to college you don't have to take them there. Well the college I want to go to is icc and that's the college our school does this for. Anyway I thought I wouldn't be able to afford it because we have no money pretty much but the teacher told me since I have free lunch I can take the classes for free!!! I got all excited after that about taking college classes next year I skipped all the way to class ha,ha. In accounting we did a pretest for the test tomorrow and yeah I hope I do good on it, so far I didn't do so good but I'll make sure to get my grade back up. In business law which is my 6th hour we took notes, and at lunch of course I had more nerdy talks with my friends and stuff and it was enjoyable. After 6th hour when the bell rang I was walking to class when Sam popped up behind me and asked how I was doing. For once we actually had a normal conversation with each other it was just like 2 friends talking to each other in the hallway :). In English we talked about our research papers which unfortunately we have to start on tomorrow... then in geometry we reviewed for a test tomorrow. After school when I got home I was about to sit and eat some yummy food and watch a movie when my aunt showed up to take me to my counseling session... so not ready to go back to court on Thursday :/ not gonna be a good day for me. After the meeting with her I came home and made chicken pot pies for my dad and I when he got home from work and after that I set to work on homework which again I'm not doing my algebra because I don't know how to do it at all. So now it's time for the bad news when I got back onto my gmail I saw 5 messages from different people. The first 3 was news from my bestest friends telling me they are moving away.... the 3 main people at school I talk to are moving :'( it's not going to be a good year next year I'm going to miss them so much... and people say well you can still email and call them. Trust me when people move away after a couple months or so you slowly stop talking to them and eventually it's like they don't exist. It happened when I moved I don't talk to anybody I used to not even the friend I grew up with... anyway the other 2 messages I got were from 2 of my guy friends telling me their dumping their girlfriends. So let's just say it's a huge crying night tonight... gonna miss them so much and I feel bad for my other friends but things happen I guess, time goes by and life moves on... I wonder if anybody I know in high school I'll stay in contact when I head off to college. Anyway I won't worry about that right now... and right now I'm just listening to the same music I listened to when I had a broken heart last year lol. Somehow it tseems to cheer me up.. well hope you all had a good day and goodnight!

Friday, January 18, 2013

talent show

Oh I also forgot to mention that I found out on the announcements today that the talent show auditions are next week... and I'm sad because I still don't have my voice when I try to sing it's all squeaky and stuff... so hopefully my voice gets better or I'm going to cry lol.

January 18 2013

hey I'm back!! Alright so let's see the last time I wrote a blog was when I told you all I am sick. Well the entire week I was sick so I missed an entire week of school, the reason I haven't done my blog is because I didn't know what else to say that week all I pretty much did was lay in bed feeling miserable. Anyway starting Monday though considering I missed a whole week of school last week I was forced to go. Of course I was nervous for some reason and was not looking forward to it, I hate first days back I mean if you missed a week you gotta catch back up on your homework you have no idea what the heck is going on and what the class talked about, and everybody got assigned seats and since you were gone you get the one to the far side of the class... Lonely on the other side. So to all of those that sit in the back of the room I know exactly how you feel!! But don't let it get you down, there can be some positives to it :). Like the teacher doesn't call on you as much. So since it's a new semester I also have all new classes which means I had no idea who all was in any of my classes. First hour I have Algebra 2, which is sorta awesome because my best friend Celeste also has my first hour and for 3 years now we have been in the same math class. Bad thing is I am terrible at math and so I really need to find a tutor or somebody that will help me. My second hour is human relations and it's a good class I guess. Have to say it is the smallest class I've ever had but Melody is in it and so is my friend Kyla. Being in the same class though Melody and I still hardly talk to each other. That class and my Algebra one I got the most homework it's terrible!! Took me 3 days to catch up on it all. Third hour is the same I still have history and hopefully I'm going to try and talk to this girl Sarah... I miss us being friends and I'm gonna tell her that... but I can't seem to get the courage to talk to her yet. Fourth hour is rocket academy and now I'm in this new class where they picked a handful of juniors and are helping them get more prepared for the act. It's a ton of fun, you can listen to music in it and the teacher always gives you candy and it's the only time we get to use an ipad :). A lot of my friends are in the class, my friend Gayla I haven't had to same class as her since freshmen year and so talking to her and stuff again is awesome. Then my friend Jeff he was in my geometry class as a sophmore and we didn't really talk much, some stuff kinda happened between us but now were talking again and he's my ipad buddy. Which I'll tell you about that here soon when I start to talk about my week more lol. My fifth hour is of course still the same but we got a new student in the class, who I now sit by and guess what her name is?? Kassidy!!! It's so funny, oh and if I didn't mention my name before it's Kassidy yes spelled with a K :). 6th hour I have business law, that class is filled with all of the popular seniors... except my friend Chris is in the class which is awesome because now I can talk to someone and stuff. See at first I was dreading the class but when I found out he was in it I got all happy and excited so I don't have to feel like a loner lol. Of course thats the class where I now get B lunch. And I have to say having B lunch is the best because you don't have to sit in the class the entire hour and it goes by like super freaking fast. Bad thing is my ex has the same lunch and it's really hard having to see him around... anyway during lunch the past few days I haven't really eaten much. I am on a diet now, at first I didn't think I would ever be on one. I mean I was gaining weight pretty fast but when I was sick I didn't eat the entire week and I lost a lot and I decided to keep it up :). I have had a lot of comments though about my weight like my friend Samual every day is like "is that all your going to eat?" "you look way to skinny" and "are you actually eating food right now?!" lol. Anyway of course after lunch it's back to 6th hour. Then 7th hour I have english. That class has a ton of people, like every single seat is filled up. The awesome part is a ton of my friends are in the class and of course more people I hardly talked to and I don't sit in the back of the class I sti near the middle so I am surrounded by my friends. It's a pretty good class, it's super hard though but it's a lot of fun. And then of course my 8th hour is geometry. Word of advice to girls don't ever focus on boys more then your school work!! Make sure your keeping up in the class... I learned that the hard way. I got all caught up on one guy that I flunked the class and now I am retaking it over again. But it's alright I guess I am startin to fall in love with Geometry. I have to say it's the easiest thing you are ever going to learn in high school :). I thought it was going to be all sophmores but there are actually quite a few people I know in the class. The funny part about this class is that there are only 2 girls in it. I noticed it the second day being there, which means it's us against the immature boys. I learned my lesson though and now I am focused on passing the class. Alright so those are all of my classes now should I talk about what happened throughout the week? Starting with Monday as you know it was my first day back from break and being sick. I still felt pretty crappy so it wasn't too good of a day, but by Tuesday it got better. I was feeling a bit down in the morning though so I went to talk to my counselor in second hour. Also in fourth hour that was the day she gave us the ipads and we got to work with them. She put us in guy girl partners and I forgot her reasoning behind it, but it was okay I got to be partners with Jeff. It was a ton of fun the entire time we were just messing around with the ipads. We went on the photobooth app and just took pictures of everything and making them look all colorful and stuff, then we kept clicking on a bunch of apps and messing around with them. See this is what I get for having guy friends, I am never really mature haha. Anyway 6th hour is when I found out my friend Chris was in the same class. It was fun we got to get in partners and work on a worksheet the entire time which of course again I was just messing around lol. And sorry but not much else happened that day. Oh cept I must say every single mornin I have been getting to school the first thing I do is start on my Algebra homework. Oh and at night all I do before I go to bed is more homework, all week pretty much I've been really focused on school and stuff so that's my reasoning for not doing my blog this week. And I know I may sound like I'm an older person but my new bedtime is 9 which has been working out great I don't sleep in anymore. So I am starting to like my new schedule now. Oh wait now I remember what I did after school Tuesday. On the bus my friend Kyle asked if I wanted to hang out so I ended up getting off at his bus stop to hang out with him. It was pretty fun, cept I needed to be back by the time my dad got home from work and I was half an hour late. It was still fun though, I got to go hiking for a bit :). I haven't been hiking in those woods since last summer and the last time I went was with Sam so it felt weird to at first... but I got over the fact I wasn't with him and enjoyed myself. Although it was just a bit cold outside and by the time I got home my dad was there and not too happy. Oh well I haven't ever been in trouble much so it was surprising my dad got mad and I didn't mind.... It's my time to be a teenager and get in trouble some. Now onto Wed. Well by then I got all my homework caught up so in human relations when I handed all my papers in it felt good to have them all done and stuff. In the act practice class I just talked to my friend Gayla and stuff again I don't think the teacher gave us anything to do for that day cept explain everything in her classroom and stuff. By lunchtime I started to feel down again... I sat by Daphnee this time I think and I got to thinking a lot about the past... The past few days to be honest it's all I've really been thinking about. I just miss sophmore year and I miss that outgoing person that everyone liked and my life seemed to be great.. anyway sorry for the depressing stuff but it's what's been on my mind. The only thing keeping me going is thinking about the future when I'm going to look back on high school and all that I've done and if I keep sitting around feeling sorry for myself and don't keep my grades going good I'm never going to be happy. Anyway not much happened again that day sorry. After school though I had to stay and talk to my business law teacher about the notes I missed and he explained everything to me. We got done half an hour before my dad came and got me so I just sat on the bench listening to music. When nobody was around I ended up dancing randomly and I got all embarrassed when I looked over and saw this one dude looking at me. He just stood there laughing a bit, I got so red in the face, it was super funny I have to admit I was laughing a ton afterwords. Anyway being a Wed. we have youth group and Aletha invited us to go eat at the church but my dad didn't feel like going or taking me so we just stayed home and hung out. On Thursday of course in the morning I did more math homework, but I didn't get it done in time and so the teacher gave me a zero but like I said I don't know how to do it at all I really need to find an every day tutor. In history we had to take a test and I felt good about it, the only test i've ever felt super positive about and I think it's because I knew what we were talking about. Again in the act class we got candy canes it made me happy lol, Lunchtime it was the same as Wed... I started thinking way too much and the friends I wanted to hang out with and talk to and stuff he was talking to. Not to mention it made me so angry and jealous on Monday night my friend Eric told me he was friends with Sam now and they were hanging out and stuff... Anyway I sucked it up and just went back to class and tried focusing on that. In english we had map testing and I'm so happy that I raised my score back up to a 244 :). They were dropped all the way to 220s and stuff but I raised them by a lot which is good. That's what I get for taking my time and actually trying on them. In geometry we went to the other computer lab and did some sorta project thing for tessellations. This guy just laughed at me because the entire time I kept pushing the wrong thing and I kept messing it up so he had to help me. On the bus I didn't really talk to Daphnee she was more in her own world it seemed. But when she got off the bus I went to the back and talked to my other friends :). They always want me to sit byem and talk lol. It's awesome feeling wanted :). Anyway after school of course I did more homework and just sat around being lazy. I ended up spending more time on the computer then I hoped last night but I was feeling really bad so I talked to my friends and they cheered me up with their randomness and telling me how great of a friend I am. Now on with today, well b far today was the best day of the entire week. I woke up feeling great, took a nice shower got in a really pretty outfit. Which I also learned if you dress better and happier you feel much better trust me girls it works. So if your feeling miserable dress yourself up a bit, and you'll feel as good as you look. I have also decided I'm going to see if my friend Celeste will let me borrow her clothes again so I can dress all crazy again. It was a ton of fun last year, and I'm trying to bring that person back out again. Anyway today we just had a half day, but that's alright it still was a really good day. In first hour we ran out of time and so even though I just blew off my homework we didn't have to turn it in which is good. In human relations Melody and I actually talked and stuff, we were talking about eating ribs and how she can eat them and not get all messy and stuff but anybody else who eats them it's like a food explosion on your face and hands lol. Also she cheats and uses a fork, who uses a fork eating ribs? I mean come on there ribs pick them up and eat them like a man :) ha,ha. In History we got t do a word search while other people took a test and about this time is when I decided I should talk to the girl Sarah about our friendship and stuff. Since it was a half day we didn't have rocket academy. In accounting we just did a newspaper thing where we got to pick out an article that interested us and write about it. In business law we had a quiz which I don't think I did too good on but I don't know yet I haven't check my grades we can only hope for the best. In english we went to the library and got to pick out what we want to write about for our research paper then go on google and look up information about it. It was funny sitting at the table and I had like 3 people call my name. This guy Tucker was like yo Kassie whats up girl, then my other friend was like "heyyy kassie!!" then my friend Ricker was like kassie hey. It was enjoyable, I love being known lol I looked at Melody and laughed like wow everyone wants me :). So off the list of topics we could choose from first I tried for Heaven's gate but that one was taken and so I chose the Galapagos Islands. Funny part about this is the teacher told me since I'm writing about them I also have to write about Darwin because that was the island on which he figured his theory of evolution out and stuff. Why that's funny is I absolutely do NOT agree with the evolution theory and now I have to write about it. I just laughed and turned to Melody like this is gonna suck, but in my paper I will make it clear I don't agree and my reasoning behind it :). Anyway the last hour of the day as you all know is Geometry and all we did was watch a video about tessellations. And I actually got quite interested in it, and this was the time that I decided Geometry is actually awesome to learn about and stuff. On the bus I sat by my friend Alex again, I haven't sat by him in awhile. So we talked and stuff about random things, while Daphnee and Kyle were having a conversation about weapons and guns and stuff it was pretty funny the times me and Alex would actually enter the conversation ha,ha. Finally they had to get off the bus and I got home and stuff. And I decided to watch some tv and take a nap, and then my brother came over and now I'm listening to him and dad talk about basketball and stuff while trying to listen to music :). And if you want to know it's a 3 day weekend!! Tomorrow I'm hanging out with my friend Alex, then of course Sunday is church and teen choir and stuff and we get to hear from our new pastor so it should be a pretty good weekend. And I thank Martin Luther King for this holiday, and I am going to do a nerdy thing. You see everybody only cares that hey it's counted as a holiday we don't get school heck yeah! Well I'm actually going to celebrate it :). He stood up for what he believed in and made a difference so I believe he deserves some credit and decided to actually celebrate his day. If he is in heaven right now and can look down and see that I care about how he helped shape America I hope he's proud :). Now this blog took me over an hour to write and so I hope you all actually read it and enjoy or just take the time to read it all and I'm gonna go. So goodnight :)

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Another Blog by Brett

So, it has come to my attention that Kassie has not updated her blog for over a week now.  This lack of updating is unacceptable, so I decided I must write a blog for her.  Normally, I would be nice to everyone and instead of making you listen to me I would tell her to do her blog for you but quite sadly I have not been able to talk to her very much over the last few days :(  But on the bright side that means this will be a surprise for her because she has no idea that I am doing this right now.  Anyway, on with the blog.  Well, instead of boring you all with some boring stories of my life, I think I will google random topics to talk about and use one of those.  And the best one I saw somewhat quickly was movies, which is something I am quite good at talking about.  Movies are perhaps my favorite form of entertainment, they are very enjoyable because they require very little thought and stuff to watch most of the time and they are good to watch when you really just dont want to do anything.  Now, I am sure you all have a favorite movie.  Well, I have some news for you.  Unless that movie happens to be titled "Inception" you are wrong.  Inception is the greatest movie ever made ever.  It has a plot that makes you think but you can still follow, it has action but not so much action that you lose track of what's going on.  Its longer than a lot of movies but not long enough to lose your attention.  And most of all, it's just awesome.  If you have not seen it you must see it.  I have personally seen it 27 times, it's that amazing.  But as awesome as Inception is, it is not the only movie on the planet.  My next 4 favorite movies, in no particular order, are The Bourne Ultimatum, The Bourne Identity, The Dark Knight Rises, and Taken.  All of those movies are amazing and if there are any of them you have not seen you absolutely must watch them.  Well, I am officially out of ideas of what else to say so I will be done now.  And now, as I have started doing when I do Kassie's blog for her, I will leave you with a random fact.  And today, that fact is... In ancient Greece, killing a dolphin was punishable by death.  Now you know.  And with that, I say goodnight.

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

being sick

So there isn't really much to talk about my past couple days, though school started on Monday... Unfortunately though I woke up feeling like crap. I was hoping to go back today but I woke up and felt even worse then I did yesterday. Hopefully I will stop missing school though and feel better by tomorrow. Anyway you all probably know what to do when your feeling sick. To be honest there is only 1 good thing about it, your parents can't make you do chores :). Well I'll try to think of something better to talk about when my brain isn't hurting so much.

Sunday, January 6, 2013

Kassie = Lazy

kassie is extremely lazy and doesn't want to make you all happy by doing her blog. So she read what this first sentence just said and decided to take the blog back from Brett and type random things for you all to read. And now she is giving the computer back to Brett to see what he can think of. And of course he cant think of anything so give him a minute here.  Um, tomatoes are a fruit.  10% of the world's active volcanoes are in Japan.  Sharks can go through 30,000 teeth in a lifetime.  McDonalds is the biggest purchaser of beef and potatoes in the world.  These facts are random.  Random facts are fun facts.  You should all put comments on this telling Kassie to do her own blogs.

Thursday, January 3, 2013

Mad Libs

so who remembers mad libs? You fill in random words and it tells a funny story. Well I decided to organize all of my stuff and I came across a couple of mine. Enjoy!!
    
           Since I use my computer every day, it can get squishy really carefully. I always make sure to jump it every 65 days in order to keep it shiny and soft. I'll grab a soft dad from the kitchen and carelessly wipe the keyboard down to get rid of all the people. Then I squirt soda on the screen to get it nice and messy. This week, it was extra dirty because my little brother Tim decided to bring his squirmy plate of pizzas into my room and eat it at my desk. When i yelled stop! and told him to stop, he stuck out his fingers at me and continued fainting. Then he started running so hard that he spilled all of his pizzas all over my Paris. That is the last time I'll let my fantastic little brother in my room ever again!!

        Mad lib number 2: Since you'll most likely be on your computer for 25 hours a day, it's very important that you learn how to type quickly. That way, you'll be able to finish your research project on Greece prudently and amaze your friends with your packing skills! Since my cheeks would never land on the hamburgers correctly, I decided to take a keyboarding class at my local house. My teacher was moldy! The first thing he told me to do was to properly position my toes on the keyboard. Then he showed me how to move my toes to be able to type actual tomatoes! I practiced my dancing skills every night until I could type 999999999 words per minute. All of my aliens are so jealous. I pooped so fast that I am always the first one to finish typing my people for Spanish class. All those hours of hard Florida were worth it!

    Mad lib number 3: Guess what uncle Tim got me for my birthday? A squishy new laptop! When I opened it, I yelled stop! and game him a great, big island. he said since I just turned 60 years old, it was important that I have my own laptop in order to do better in my classes at Hawaii. My laptop is so small that I can squeeze it anywhere. It's bright green and weighs 60000 pounds. It even has a sleek greeting case, so I can take it to the hello kitty world with me. Isn't that fat? Now I can lie down on the books, look at the beautiful sparkling Paris, and get a tan on my head while I type up my project for Latin class. But I have to be careful not to get people in my laptop, uncle Tim would ponder me!

   Mad lib number 4: I love my computer. It's my favorite lightbulb in the whole world! I got it for my birthday in 5083, and I've used it every day since. It's in my bedroom on my foot, right next to the window overlooking the Texas. It's bright blue with huge butterflies hooked up to it so I can listen to the latest cd from my favorite band, the buttheads. The first thing I do when I lick at my computer is check the day's weather light bulb. Then I'll go see what's happening in the day's local boyfriends. And since our family is taking a vacation to fair, I usually go on their website to see what kind of fun hello kitties are happening there. Sometimes my good looking little sister Scarlett tries to come in and use my computer, but I never let her! She's so goofy gooberish that I'm afraid she'll talk it.

   and last but not least Mad lib number 5: If you've never walked the web before, it can be quite retarded. My mom found it so hard that it took me 15 hours to kiss her! Here are some stupid tips on how to correctly sit your way through! You'll first need to make sure you have bed access. This will enable you to connect to your favorite woman. You'll need to pick a sexy engine to find the information you're looking for. My favorite is goober. Now the crap begins! You'll be able to look up any information your chest hairs desire. From learning about popular eyeballs in south Africa to shopping for shirts, the web is yours. After you've finished jumping, make sure to log off correctly. Your computer needs a break after all that smashing.

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

winter warmth

Piles of snow beneath my boots
chilly winds blowing everywhere
snow keeps mounting on the posts
on the windows and on the roads
shovels outside,
soups inside
hot and rich,
chicken and corn
coming back from all the work
this is what I look for
the warm chestnuts,
the cracking fire
this is my winter warmth

Peace

If true love exists
Then so does true hate
Even though that it shouldn't
This world should be great

We should live in a world
Filled with love and with peace
This needs to exist here
And also across seas

We will all come together
And join hand in hand
The world is now one
Together we'll stand

And in perfect harmony
This world will soon scream
This was gods plan
But this was our dream

Healing love

Oh Great God, You alone can ease
The pounding of my troubled heart
Only with You I am at peace
For You make all my fears depart

Comfort me with Your blazing love
And pacify my worried soul
Your grace of love from up above
Is healing love that makes me whole

Cast away all my doubts and fears
And lift my downcast spirit Lord
Please let my heart be brought to cheer
By Your comforting love and Word

My body and mind may be frail
But your healing love keeps me strong
Your love will never ever fail
So to me, nothing will go wrong

2012

Tonight I don't want to talk about my day. One nothing interesting really happened I mostly just slept, but two I want to just write about how my year went last year overall and who was the only one who helped me to get through it. At the beginning of the year I found out the guy I was dating for almost 5 years ended up cheating on me. The night I found out it felt like my world had ended, time seemed to stand still. The first thing I did was look to God. I stayed up the entire night praying to him and begging him to please get me through it. By the next day I felt just a bit better, but it was great to stay up the entire night letting out all my emotions to him. Surprisingly enough it only took me about a month to get over him. By February I started liking this other guy. February 6th we started going out and I didn't realize then like I do now what a huge mistake that was. Although it was good for me to date him because I learned a lot, and I learned about myself more and who I truly am. Anyway about a week later I finally told about my uncle and what he was doing to me. It was one of the hardest things I had to go through in my life, I was scared of tearing my family apart. I hadn't planned of telling anybody a certain day it just sorta happened. The weekend right before I did I just couldn't take it anymore I couldn't stand him anymore... I never could stand him but he just made me snap finally. He told my dad and brother I was sleeping with the guy, I lied about spending the night at my best friend Daphnee's and instead went to his place. I was furious not only that but he wouldn't leave me alone when I got back. He followed me everywhere. So Monday... well things all went wrong. I was sent to the deans office because these girls told them I was drunk. They said they were going to call my grandpa up and come get me. When he got to the school I decided now is when I need to say what has been going on. Of course I did and that whole week was just, it seemed like the longest week of my life. But the thing is, I handled the entire situation a heck of a lot better then anybody else in my family did. Everyone was breaking down furious at me and at him, nobody knew who was telling the truth. I broke apart thinking everybody hates me now and I am no longer apart of the family, but the who was there for me throughout it all was God. I prayed and prayed to him. He got me through that week, I stayed strong for my family and I stayed strong for myself. By the end of the week it was Friday morning before school my dad told me he had something to talk to me about. He parked the car, and let it out that he planned to kill himself later that day. Now for all of those who read this and have been through the same thing you know what it feels like but for those who it hasn't happened to... I pray that it doesn't. I held my cool when he told me, I just I didn't know what to say to it. He tried to a couple years before then but I thought he was over that. I told him I had to get to class so for the first time in a really long time he told me he loved me and we hugged. As soon as I got into the building I fell apart.... Every single day after that I was worried he was going to hurt himself, I kept talking to him telling him none of this was his fault and I prayed to God that he would know he's not to blaim. Oh I forgot to mention when all of this was going on my dad hadn't accepted Christ into his heart yet. Anyway that week was a mess and now you all know. About a week later everyone in the school found out about my uncle and my dad... beware of who your friends are, it seems like nowadays the only one you can trust really is God. Anyway I had so many people walk up to me and tell me I made it all up for attention, all I wanted was to be noticed. They had no understanding of what I was going through. This one time at lunch 3 girls came up to me and just started snapping about everything, they told me who it was that started saying it to everyone. I tried holding my cool but once the bell rang I through my stuff against the wall and ran out. I didn't want to be apart of that school any longer. I hated Limestone and to be honest I still can't stand it, I'm only there for my education then to get the heck out. Anyway my grandpa came and picked me up that day and I missed school for about a week or so. We were thinking about having me go to Richwoods instead, but I ended up getting a ton of apology messages from people, and I realized it'll be even worse if I try to avoid the problem then face it. So I went back to school, and after a couple months or so nobody talked about it anymore. By the end of the school year I was all happy and just it felt like things were getting back to normal. Not only that but I moved like just a hike away from my now ex boyfriend. Things were great....in June my aunt Aletha called me up and told me her church was needing volunteers for vbs. I remember doing it at my old church that I said I would love to come and help out, it was a ton of fun!! I love working with kids so much, not only that but my first day there I saw Tim and I got all excited. We hardly ever talked much but it was great seeing someone I knew, then I saw Melody was there to. We only talked Freshmen year but I thought this is awesome. I heard about camp that was only 3 days later. It sounded like a ton of fun and a great way for me to meet new people and make more friends. So I signed up to go, and of course you all know about that week and when I got back my dad accepted Christ in his heart. It was amazing!! That was until a couple weeks later when I came home and I got a call from his boss saying he was in the hospital. I wasn't worried because I thought he only had a heatstroke or something, I remembered him having one before and he was alright. I got a phone call from my grandpa though and he said that my dad wasn't right, I could hear him in the background talking jibberish and when I got off the phone with my grandpa I just burst into tears... I had no idea what was going on. He was then transferred to the mental facility place at the top of the hospital. He was there for about a week or so and finally got to come back home. He still wasn't right though... after awhile though he was fine again. I went back home and everyday I would go and hang out with my boyfriend and Daphnee. It was a giant mistake... hanging out with them I got into smoking and of course drinking. It was my only escape away from reality it felt like, I mean I felt all happy and there was nothing to worry about when I did. Until one night I got so drunk that well something happened... and after that I realized am I really doing this? This isn't who I am, this is completely stupid. Partying and getting drunk is completely stupid! I asked God for forgiveness and tried talking to him, but a couple days later it felt like he didn't exist again.. I spent more time focusing on a stupid guy then on him or anything else for that matter. My dad kept going back into the hospital and we ended up having fight after fight and instead of going to God to help me, I tried dealing with things myself. At the beginning of August is when things really hit the negatives. There was a night I woke up and I heard my dad talking to himself.. but it wasn't just a person talking to himself it was 3 different of his voices I heard like having a full out conversation. I called up my grandma, brother, and the pastor from our church to come over. They did of course and my grandma is atheist and she started cussing at the pastor and lets just say it was a huge mess, anyway later on I got to be home alone. My grandma ended up taking my dad back to the hospital and told me I had to stay home, I was devastated at a time like this I can't be alone. That same day Sam promised me he was going to come over and see me. He was gone for a week to his grandparents house and I missed him. He didn't and  So I took off through the woods and headed to his place. As soon as I got there his brother said Kassie come inside Sam is in his room, he's going to be so happy to see you. I knocked on his door and he asked who it was, when he did I popped inside and what I saw made me furious more then I've ever been before. Smoke clouded his room, I saw 2 girls and 6 guys all smoking weed. He didn't get up right away at all, didn't seem to make any care that I was there. Finally he got up and we walked into the hallway. I tried my hardest to keep my cool, when he asked what was wrong I told him what was happening... here's what he says "I'm so stoned right now I really can't help you can I go back with my friends?" With that I stormed out of his place... the time I needed somebody most he wasn't there for me. A good boyfriend would have been there for me and not only that he promised to come over but instead was sitting in his room with a bunch of crap smoking away having a good time. When I got back to the woods I banged my head over and over against a tree, I took a sharp rock to my wrist... at that moment I took all the anger I had and let it out to myself. After enough hurting myself though I finally tried to clear my head, I fell to my knees and I cried to the Lord. I cried and cried, and at that point I realized he is the only one who is there and the only one who will always be there for me, even when you don't deserve it, even when you sin so much against him.. he is there and will be always.... Knowing he was listening brought hope to my heart and it helped me to get back on my feet brush the dirt off and go home. The next day was Friday and my cousin Kelsy was getting married. my dad stayed home, we decided it wasn't a good idea for him to come acting like he was. So instead I went with my other grandparents and stayed with them. I was having a great time and just looked to the sky in the car. Finally for lunch we met up with my aunt Donna, she asked how is your dad doing. I told her oh he's just home... I looked to my grandpa and the look he had I knew something happened. I asked what it was, and he told me somebody found my dad trying to jump off the bridge to kill himself and he was back in the hospital... So much for a happy trip and enjoying a wedding huh? Not only that but Sunday was my birthday, and I hoped so hoped that I would get to go to church and spend it with my friends and have a great day. Instead I had to stay in Wisconsin with my grandparents... I kept checking my facebook to talk to Sam. When he finally got online it was the first time I talked to him since what happened a couple days before... I told him how i felt and what all was going on. The next day it was on my birthday actually I read a message from him saying he can't take it anymore and that it's over between us... my heart broke. Not only was my dad back in the hospital but I just got dumped by the guy I love.. Anyway nothing really happened on my birthday, you can see why I didn't enjoy it too much. Since my dad was still in the hospital I had to stay with my grandparents for a couple more weeks or so. I hoped things would get better once school started but those plans didn't really work out either. Starting the year I skipped 3 days, just walked right out of the building because I was too heartbroken over him and I couldn't stand seeing him in the hallways. Every day though I walked over to his house though and begged for him back, I said I can change and blah blah blah you know the usual stuff. Anyway of course that weekend we got back together, and I forgot all about my relationship with God. Completely did not even bother to hear what he was trying to tell me, or even talk to him. Things got really bad at my grandparents house so I ended up having to stay at Aletha's. Being there I felt so much like family, but I got super homesick. So she let me ride the bus back home and I got to stay there for a couple hours. Anyway it was I believe the last day of September when I went over to Sam's house. I could tell the past week he was going to break up with me again. It got to the point where he wouldn't even hold my hand or nothing, that day it happened like I knew it would. I mean it was me who brought it up, and then he said he didn't love me anymore and what not and hadn't the past month or so now but didn't want to break my heart. Which of course he destroyed it, but didn't care. At first I took it alright but then I got so broken I just gahh I couldn't stand him. Anyway the 3rd of October was homecoming, it was only a couple days before that we broke up. Originally we were going to make a little picnic and snuggle and watch a movie.. that turned to stone so I asked this guy in my accounting class to go with me because I didn't want to be stuck home feeling miserable. Which sounds like a better idea to me now... anyway it was worst night ever. I got food all over my dress, I found out Sam cheated on me, I got in trouble by my uncle Steve, everybody hated me and sent me nasty things later that night on my facebook, and the guy ditched me. As soon as I got to Aletha's is when Steve got mad because i was 15 minutes late, that's what topped it off to break me. I then went to my room, snuggled up in the covers and just cried. Steve tried to cheer me up, and we talked for a bit he was extremely furious that the guy ditched me like that but I was irresponsible and didn't call him up instead... Anyway it was a rough night, and a rough few nights for that matter. Actually it was a rough month altogether. I stopped eating really, and Aletha noticed I lost a lot of weight, I never wanted to be alone because I was lonely and Aletha had to stay with me a lot of the time, at school I didn't pay attention I kept going into the counselor's office... It was rough but after the night of homecoming... is when I really started thinking about Brett and God of course. But I kept thinking to the guy I met at camp during the summer and how he made me feel.... so I decided to talk to him. We of course started talking more and more. And finally in November is when things started to get better, we started going out, I was back home with my dad, and I realized I don't need a lot of friends the one's I do have now I cherish a ton and I know are always there for me. And my faith in Christ has just grown incredibly strong the past couple months that I want to worship his name every day and spread the word of God to everyone. And when I get back from Christmas break my friends and I started a prayer group during lunch :). So things are working great now, and I'm feeling happy a feeling I haven't had in a long time. And to start off my new year I got to be with Brett. And I couldn't have asked for anything more or even a more special night. Thanks to the friends I have, my family, and of course God I can get through anything. That's why I'm not worried about this year, whatever comes my way I'll face it and I know I won't be alone because there is always someone who is there <3. Goodnight.

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

january 1st 2013

Wow is it weird to type that date in... ha,ha can't believe it's the first day of the new year. I can tell though already it's going to be a great year! I have been through so much last year that whatever does come my way won't really hurt me. The first person I got to see was Brett to <3. And to be honest one of my biggest dreams growing up is that I would get a kiss on midnight :). And I never thought it was going to happen this year lol, but it did with the most wonderful guy I have ever met. Life is great right now... I just got done deleting my facebook as well, so now I am starting my new year's resolutions. This time I plan to keep them. Anyway I won't tell you much about the days I missed. Oh except yesterday and today they were super amazing. Well I should say the day before yesterday and yesterday haha. Anyway starting with Sunday. Well in the morning of course my dad woke me up because if he didn't I would have slept in which isn't good because I promised Brett I would go to youth group. Anyway I got ready and stuff and we headed to church. Dad dropped me off because he never goes to sunday school. Anyway when I got into the room the first person i noticed was Brett of course hehe. Then it was starting.. and like not even halfway through it this lady came up to me and asked if I could talk to her for a minute. At first I was thinking I did something wrong or something happened but then she mentioned wanting to take me to Florida with her. At first I was just like in complete shock like oh wow I'm going to Florida I thought I would never go there till I was older and stuff, but then she mentioned it was right after church and I started thinking not so happy. Anyway I went back and sat by my friends and stuff thinking a ton... it was weird because the thought of not being with Journey and Claire made me want to cry some. I mean I think the main reason was because every time I go to Florida it was with them... and I thought it wouldn't be the same if I didn't have them along. Anyway after youth group I unfortunately had to say goodbye to Brett and stuff and we both hoped I wouldn't go to Florida. We also laughed because the woman who invited me went around telling everybody about it before I knw for sure if I could go. Anyway when Brett left I went inside the sanctuary to try and find my dad. Of course he had to sit in like the very front row where everyone can see us, especially when I had to keep getting up so Claire could use the restroom.  The first time I took her to the bathroom I talked to her about going to Florida and she told me she would cry and be sad because she would miss me. It broke my heart a bit, not only that but i was thinking about the plans I had with Brett and stuff this week and I didn't wanna not see him. So near the end of service I wrote a little message to my dad saying to say i can't go because I would rather stay home. I mean Florida is awesome and all but I love it here. After service we went to wally world (wal mart) and had a lot of fun. I pushed the girls in the cart and we pretended it was nascar. Afterwards when we got home I just sat around on facebook all day talking to Brett and other peoples. Before I knew it, it was time to go on the date with Brett. We went to eat at Flattop Grill and to go see the Hobbit. It was just so much fun... I mean the entire time I was being my goofy self and stuff and we were well I have no clue what we were doing witht eh chopsticks and wrappers lol but it was fun. And the entire time I was thinking it's amazing to be goofy with someone hehe and just be myself and have this great of a time. I'm just so happy and at that moment I was happy. Then we went to see the Hobbit and in the theater I kept wanting to hold his hand and stuff but of course I got too shy to. But afterwards it was so funny because there was this random guy who knew his name and just I had a really amazing night with him. I went home and told Journey and Claire all about it like girl's do then I finally went to bed. Now on with yesterday. Which saying yesterday feels super weird because it still feels like it's today haha. Anyway I woke up in a not so pleasant mood because I didn't get any sleep at all. Anyway I ended up waking up at noon and by the time I woke up we had to go out to eat for lunch. It sounds like wow see you got plenty of sleep but no I went to bed about 8ish in the morning. We then went out to Long John Silvers for lunch and Journey wasn't feeling good so we just wnet back home. Time went super freaking fast because before I knew it Brett was going to come and get me again. I watched tv until he got to my place, and when he did it was amazing. It's so hard going more then a day without him he just makes my heart get filled with joy. Anyway I won't tell you every little detail like what all we talked about and stuff but then we got to his house and I met his family and they were of course really nice :). And after a little while we went into the other room to play Tripoli which I will not explain because it is unexplainable you must play the game though!! It's so much fun, and I had a blast the entire time. I actually didn't do too bad with it :) and I got to know his family. Their extremely funny and i don't think I ever stopped smiling once. It was mainly because I was spending time with him and his family :D which I have made very clear in the past well lots of sentences lol. Anyway after the game Brett and I went downstairs to watch a movie. Well not really watch it more like goof around about what they are saying and stuff. Then we watched some youtube videos and time went by so fast before we knew it it was midnight. And if anyone asks whats the first thing I did on new years it was kiss him <3. And it was awesome!! The most amazing way ever to start my year off was getting to be beside him. After about another hour or so of talking I had to go. So I thanked his dad for letting me come over and we left. I will not tell you how many taxi cars I saw driving around, and this one was parked at steak n shake and I saw this man struggling to get out he was so drunk. I swear being all drunk and partying like that isn't what it's all made out to be. Now playing Tripoli and being with well hehe others family was awesome and the best time I've had all year. Unfortunately it was time for me to say goodbye and go inside. And here I am talking to Brett again thinking how I'm so happy to be his and slowly starting to get sleepy. So I hope everybody has an awesome new year and this year treats everyone much better then last year may have.